28F
I got married 7 years back and not having baby.It was an arranged marriage. I had a past relationship in my college days, which includes physical as well. Due to caste issues, we got separated and I married to my husband. I conceived before marriage twice with my ex and taken pills. Now we are tried of IVF and no luck. Tbh I don't attracted towards my husband. Now I'm thinking of trying with my ex boyfriend. I know it's morally wrong. But day by day I am loosing confidence. I couldn't face anybody in family functions. My husband is fine to adopt a child. But I'm not interested. So I want to try it with my ex. He would be the right person as we already had physical. So my body count won't get increased. Due to a unavoidable situation we separated but still we talk occasionally. I am not sure, whether he will agree or not. He is still not married and looking for alliance